thinking beyond

This happens to be the words i came across just when the thought of writing a blog crossed my mind. n mind it this is my first. so u better judge me well. as a kid we all were guided to do what the elders at home felt best for us. later it was the guiding hands of lecturers, influential friends or their parents, cousins, people who left a mark in our lives. Now i have reached a stage where i wanna be guided but no one wants to guide. why is this treatment all of a sudden when i wanted to be my own guide i wasn't allowed to be one, now when i badly need it no ones lending their hands.

Just out of college i was much focused clear in my thought process. but now with an work experience, tag of a prestigious organisation supported with an educational qualification i am much more lost than i can ever think of. Whats happened to that "Thinking Beyond" all barriers. Where's the killer in me gone? I cant effectively understand with experience why is the ability to undertake risk chickening out?

Probably this is just another of those days when i really wanna reflect on the past and ask my self whats actually changed me so much? positively should be able to figure out the answer soon.

Now all those who are gonna read this you have full liberty to let me know your feelings and any suggestions for me are warmly welcome.